Have not blogged for months

Hey all~ I have not blogged again for months. I'm not sure if anyone even checks this stuff anymore. However, i'm guessing it's a good way to to relieve some stress. After a long summer break from school, I feel more motivated than ever to start this new fall semester!~ I wonder how long it's going to last though.. lol all this talk about goals and success can only keep me motivated for so long until I run into some difficulties then I tend to over-analyze things and then things start to stall and stall and stall... eh. However, I found that taking more classes keeps me more focused on school work. As long as i'm more organized and try as much as I can to get involved, i'm sure i'll easily follow through.. It's all about staying on top of things.

I've been focusing a lot about getting my life organized, simply by building up a complex schedule for myself including work, school and the gym. That's right, the "GYM" lol. I took up Yoga and Pilates class.. it is a huge step for me since I normally don't go venture off in the unknown by myself.. Nevertheless, it was worthwhile. What's not to love about toning up your muscles and feeling relaxed at the same time? These are the types of workouts that would give you that "slim" and lean figure because you are not building muscle mass, but rather you are just stretching and toning your muscles (also victoria's-secret-models' work-out regime).

At work, it's just really fast paced so my cardios are pretty much set. All night i'm on my feet walking and sometimes running around. It also includes carrying heavy trays, climbing ladders, carrying multiple buckets of drinks, etc...And on the side, I've been taking a few vitamins as well (which is an extra step because I used to hate taking anything that looks like medicine).

-One a day for women (multivitamins): I tend to skip meals and breakfast due to my lack of time, I'm lactose intolerant and I don't really eat fruits. I'm pretty sure I lack a lot of vitamins of some sort so this would help me start my day off with a kick.

-Hair, Nails and Skin Supplement: Due to lack of vitamins (so I assume), because my nails are so brittle and my over-processed hair is all damaged.. I don't know if it's just me, but I actually do see results.

-Chromium Picolinate: Another supplement that increases the efficiency of your insulin level . It helps prevent high cholesterol and high blood pressure. It is also a great weight loss supplement by boosting up your metabolism and prevents the cravings of carbs and sugar which then produces fat.

-Diurex: Diuretic pills are water pills. Sometimes your body just fills itself up with fluid and makes you feel bloated or fat because of water weight gain. Well these pills are used to absorb the excess water your body retains, thus leading you to lose water weight. While taking these pills, it is important to keep a well-balanced diet as well to make this temporary weight-loss become permanent. Athletes use it, especially in boxing to lose a ton of weight within a period of 2 or 3 days so that they could box in a certain weight category. However, if over-abused, it may be deadly because one may suffer from major dehydration. Therefore, please take as instructed on the box.

Lastly, I always try to improve my self image at least dramatically each year. If you feel like you look good, you will feel good, and that will give you the confidence to do things that will surely benefit you. Am I right? ^^

I'm done with my long blabbering now haha. Here are some newly updated pix of me.
This is taken from a small video clip I made

No more bangs. Have you noticed? ^^ My style has also changed a bit. I guess I'm getting older before I know it hehe. Beauty is truely a hard battle to triumph. I went through braces, through weight struggle (major up and downs), self-esteem struggle, the hardship of learning how to do makeup, to shape eyebrows, to style hair (especially having really coarse hair), to dress appealingly. Even resulted into masking my flaws with photoshop. Now, I can comfortably say that I discarded the idea of even "photoshopping" my pictures for a very long time. I've improved in every aspect of past struggles that I no longer need it anymore. Also, my skills may use a bit more polishing, I am more confident than last year and the year before that and certainly a decade before as well. I have learned to embrace what I have once thought of as a flaw (I'm loving my big forehead, gives me a more "doll-like" appearance"). I like my big lips, they are luscious, I love the size of my chest (believe it or not, I always wanted to appear and be flat chested--So I never wear padded bras, EVER). I love the fact that I have some curves, and not stick skinny (like I always wanted to be). I love the fact that my skin is really white (I used to want to be tanned when I was younger and tried to stay out in the sun as long as possible). I love the fact that I am petite and small because isn't it cuter? to look like someone can just put you in their pockets and carry you around. Everything that I used to hate about myself, I'll need to start finding the beauty in it.. people are infatuated by your confidence, that's what I have learned. I'm still struggling with it until now but it's dramatically improving ^^.

Anyway. I'm sure I need to proof-read my blog. but i'm way too lazy. I'm sure you know what I mean. keke